I got the job yall!! I’m about to start contributing to society again wooo!!
Edit: thanks to everyone below. Such positivity here, I love it.
Congrats 🎉
Fuck yes!!!
🎉🎉🎉
Yay. 🙂🍾🥂
Woohoo 🙌🎉
Few things I really need to sort out this year, posting here for accountability tbh.
- investigate with professionals whether I am autistic (it would make so much sense if true)
- investigate with professionals regarding pmdd symptoms
- practice and enact self care routines
- practice cleaning more often so the home doesn’t become a clutterbomb
- talk to my dad more, cultivate the relationship I want with him
sounds like a plan 👍🙂
Thank you to those who replied to my adulting comment with words of encouragement and support! 💖💖
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Who gets to say how an adult should live anyway?
Life is hard enough without people telling us we’re doing it wrong.
This is my problem:
It’s only 2pm and I want to go out now, because when I wait till 10pm I lose motivation.
Edit:
This seems to be a good spot the cat tree

One solution only - time travel. Most easily accomplished by lying horizontal on bed or bed like structure and setting an alarm for 1 hour before planned departure time.
If I had sleeping pills I’d knock myself out till then lol
or you could find a snow bank where you can wait it out in suspended animation
I think I just made the perfect mcdonalds order: double quarter pounder with extra onion and pickles, just the burger no drink or chips. Absolute banger. Nothing unnecessary
Oh damn nicholas brendan died
Its a bit of a shock, I know he hadn’t been well but didn’t expect that.
4.5 hours of overtime to do today. We’ve been too busy to fit in some necessary training about upcoming regulatory changes so they asked us to do it today. Im okay with it, 2x pay 😁
Silver lining!!!
“Why yes, of course my masculinity revolves around carrying all the shopping into the house in one go, why do you ask?”
Bro, your heart. Embrace middle age wisdom and be gentle with yourself.
You’re not wrong.
So real talk for a moment: It’s stuborness that got me this far. Maybe it can be dialled down a little. Maybe.
I hurt my back pretty bad some years ago and getting a trolley to carry my few groceries was a godsend. I didn’t have it in me to carry a few kg of food around Aldi. Look after yourself.
Was waylaid by the black cat. He wanted pats and me to sit with him as he ate, but the barest brush of his tum while he rolled resulted in a dramatic meow and hiss. Which is predictable enough.
But his ears were weirdly hot. I could feel it through the gloves, like he has a temperature. Please don’t let him need the vet.
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I miss my baby Melbcat so much. She loved belly rubs and would roll over and make biscuits in the air while receiving them. I don’t think there will ever be another cat like her.
I try to sleep in so I don’t have to be awake in this reality. Sometimes if it’s bad I nap it away. I still curl around her urn and protect it with my body. Relapsing into bad coping mechanisms. Depressed af and anxious all the time.
I still haven’t emptied the biscuits from her bowl and her water is evaporating by itself. It hurts to empty her beautiful fur out of the vacuum canister all mixed with dust.
With punkin and misha we kept it and put it in the compost to be part of the garden they loved to laze in.
I still find whispy gobs of misha’s fur. We put them in a small container and let her outside to fly in the breeze on sunny afternoons. She always demanded outside time on sunny days
Melbcat loved the garden and the sun. Unfortunately it was limited due to safety while she was alive but maybe a little hair could go outside.
I’m so sorry about Punkin and Misha
so many hugs
about her fur
Maybe you can take it out, dust it, brush it a little and put it in an envelope. A keep sake.
and it seems black cat likes you, he’s just taking a while to relax
I have saved whiskers, a tuft of her fur clipped by the funeral company, and some fur from the brush. It just feels like slowly erasing her from my house. 💔
I don’t know what I’m going to do with him. I’m trying to ensure he gets a feed when I see him and parasite treatment once a month, but currently I can’t seem to do any more than that.
you can’t erase her. It’s not possible. As long as you are here, she is here, in your heart, where she can never, ever be taken away from you.
Sometimes it feels like I’m already forgetting how she felt to hold and what she sounded like 😔
grief and shock do that to your memory. It doesn’t last, I promise.
some lives hit so much harder when they leave your own. Two years on and I still can’t speak out loud about Punkin without crying. And for along time it felt I’d lost even the memory of him. But I got it back. And you will too. It’s your mind trying to protect you from harm when you’re breaking down, and doing it in a stupid, stupid way.
Thanks. This has really messed me up
I went into a year long depressive state after losing Punky. We grieve.
May I suggest you print some pictures of her and frame them for the wall. All the other things just end up in a drawer but it would be nice to have a picture on display.
don’t worry so much about black cat, he will tell you want he wants and needs 🐈⬛🖤
That’s a good idea. She was such a beautiful cat.
I do fret. It’s a really awkward position to be in and I have my fingers crossed he doesn’t get sick, hit, or attacked by another animal.
and good night Melba, 🫂
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Mama ocean. The weather is weird but the water was lovely

Project Hail Mary time! The cinema gave us hacky sacks, very cute.
score! 🌍🌎🌏
also, TIL what a hacky sack is
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Waking up straight into a panic. I am not handling life well
Recommend warm shower or if you can’t stand that long just splash water on your face, drink water and taste it and stand breathing concentrating on the soles of your feet on the floor.
Or if you can’t get up yet. Phone down . Close eyes and listen for all the sounds you can hear.
Hugs. Night terrors suck
The horrors persist. But so do we.
I don’t wanna
I need to not drink and internet.
Did you buy something silly?
Nah, just very chatty!
I miss omegle for this exact reason
Drink and internet is fun though.
Good night everyone
sweet dreams 😘
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